So remember in my last post how I said progesterone made me crazy dizzy? Well, just to make liar out of me, my body decided to NOT be dizzy on progesterone this month. Last month at this time, I was having to hold onto my desk multiple times a day due to my extreme vertigo. Now I’m just coasting along without any side effects (other than the disgusting ooze).
I’ve been working really hard to minimize my expectations for this cycle. Yes, I’m doing the progesterone and yes I’m taking my prenatal vitamins, but other than that I’m doing my best to ignore the whole thing. I did buy some pineapple to snack on at work, but when it got kind of funky I tossed it without buying more. Previous cycles I would have dropped everything and run straight out to the store to buy more. MUST EAT PINEAPPLE. I COULD BE IMPLANTING RIGHT THIS VERY MINUTE ZOMG.
I don’t have high hopes because a) I only have one mature egg and b) why would this cycle work when nine others haven’t? And the one that did work only worked for a little while?
So I’m gearing up for IVF. I’ve been trying to figure out what protocol I might be on: birth control for two or three weeks prior to stims? Or Lupron/other drug to keep my ovaries quiet? One thing I’m worried about is the timing. Tammy’s brother is getting married at the end of April and we’re both in the wedding. If my calculations are correct I might be starting stims around the beginning of April (that leaves two weeks to be on BC). Would that be enough time to stim, go to ER and transfer?
Ugh. I hate uncertainty, and I hate not having control. Which is why infertility/sub-fertility shit is such a perfect match for me!
Good luck between now and then… My clinic always asks me up front if there are any dates when I would be unavailable or when I’d have to be out of town, and they try to work around those. Probably yours will do the same?
Yep, I’m sure our clinic would let us sit a cycle out. But I really REALLY don’t want to. So then the debate becomes, do another IUI while we wait (with our unlimited money! haha!)? Or do we just take a month off…only it might be more like TWO months off. Arrgggh.
That’s so weird, I usually get dizzy from progesterone, too, but this cycle not so much. It was apparently replaced by extreme fatigue. 😦 It sounds like you and I are in a similar place. I haven’t had as many medicated cycles, but plenty of failed cycles (~20) and one early loss. Given our age and the fact that I have endo, we’ll likely skip right over IUI and go to IVF. We have the big IVF consult in a couple weeks. Wishing you the best of luck!
Thank you, Kitten! (LOVE your name, BTW) and best of luck to you! I love your blog!
Good luck! Crossing my fingers that it sticks and you won’t even have to worry about ivf
Thanks Gaby! Where are you in your process? Waiting for a positive OPK?
yeah. im on day three of Clomid. I have an ultrasound on CD12 and hopefully insem on CD14 🙂 My very first one and i am beyond excited!
I loved this post. Mostly because I can totally relate right now. We have just done our second insemination and I’m trying to just go about my life thinking it didn’t work. I always think I’ll know it when I am pregnant. Do you feel the same way?
Yeah, I always thought I would know when I was pregnant. But the only time I actually was pregnant I was sure that I wasn’t. My boobs didn’t hurt, I didn’t have cramps, I wasn’t tired, etc etc. And almost every month that I’m NOT pregnant I have every symptom in the book. Maybe I should take that as a hint and hope for NO symptoms.